Thursday, May 20, 2010

THE PURPOSE

I OFTEN TEND TO WONDER WHAT MY PURPOSE HERE ON EARTH IS. AND YET I STILL DONT HAVE THE ANSWER. I LOOK AT ALL THE BAD THAT HAPPEN TO ME SINCE BIRTH AND YET I ASK WHY ME? STILL WHAT IS MY PURPOSE? AND YET I STILL DONT HAVE THE ANSWER. SOME PEOPLE SAY WE NEVER REALLY KNOW OUR TRUE PURPOSE UNTIL IT'S TO LATE. WELL, I DON'T WANT THAT HAPPENING TO ME. MY PURPOSE, IS TO LIVE LOVE AND LEAVE A GOOD NAME BEHIND. MY PURPOSE IS TO KNOW THE MEANING IF STRUGGLE TO SEE THE PASSION THAT OTHERS HAVE. MY PURPOSE IS TO BREAK BARRIERS. SO PEOPLE CAN TRULLY SEE THAT THERE IS A WHOLE NEW AN BETTER LIFE AFTER PORN. I KNOW I OFTEN TALK ABOUT OVERWEIGHT PEOPLE, BUT I DON'T MEAN IT INA NEGATIVE WAY. IT JUST FRUSTRATES ME TO SEE PEOPLE HAVING TO STRUGGLE LIKE THAT BECAUSE I HAD TO STRUGGLE WITH IT AND I KNOW HOW FRUSTRATING IT CAN BE AND KNOWING THAT ITS NOT EASY IS EVEN MORE FRUSTRATING.

TODAY I LOOK AT THE WORLD AS BEING CRUEL AND THE PEOPLE IN IT. I HAVE A QUESTION, WHY DO GOOD HEARTED PEOPLE GET FUCKED OVER MAJORLY? FORREAL I MEAN I DONT GET IT AND I THINK ITS UNFAIR. DOESNT THE BIBLE SAY "TREAT PEOPLE ON HOW YOU WANT TO BE TREATED"? SO IF A PERSON IS BEING A GOOD HEARTED PERSON TO YOU DONT YOU THINK YOU SHOULD SHOW THAT PERSON THE SAME RESPECT? WHY DO FUCKED UP PEOPLE GET MAD WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING FUCKED UP TO THEM AS IF THEY ARE TRULY THE VICTIM? WHAT IS THE PURPOSE IN ALL THIS? WHY CAN'T WE ALL ACCEPT EACH OTHER AND LOVE ANOTHER? ESPECIALLY THE BLACK COMMUNITY. WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT LOVE WE USED TO HAVE WHEN EVERYBODY HAD EACH OTHERS BACK NO MATTER WHAT? WHAT HAPPENED TO FIGHTING ABOUT WHAT REALLY MATTERED INSTEAD OF FIGHTING ABOUT THE COLOR BLUE OR RED?

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT IS THE PURPOSE FOR ALL THIS? WHY IS THERE SO MUCH PAIN?

6 comments:

  1. Color of skin matters less and less, especially to our kids. i know, lots of interracial couples and kids in LB, coached enough in basketball, and my son a swirl as well. But they are going for these stupid colors of hate, that i know as well. Some are just that way, many actually are born to be haters. At this level it is rats fighting for scraps, where at higher ones it is wolves tearing up our countries carcass. Thanks Bush.Alla re weak, and seeking strength in selfish and basically sociopathic ways, it is far more common than you know, everywhere.

    move away from it, cut all connection if you have to. Like often attracts like, and being in a terrorist environment wears on one and make it part of ones life, cut it out before it cuts you.

    It is a big world. We all have choices to make, every one we do makes us who we are. but can always restart, but must by being fresh, and reviewing who YOU are. How did you get here? A man is who he hangs with, what he does, and his word. Always judge him by that, not what he says, good or bad.

    Kids are much more grown than you think, we all have different temperaments. But adults have chosen to be who they are, and bear all teh responsibility, never let them off the hook. If they do bad, they are bad, so go. No excuses.

    Good luck, and move one if necessary, and change how you live, adn your outlook, we all must at times in our lives. If we dont, we become stuck and rot.

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  2. Cc i often used to wonder the same thing when i was younger but now that ive grew up now have purpose to live .life is gamble and most take it for granted so i think its good that you stopped porn and want to tare down barriers and as far as the over weight ppl thing i think we need a positive rolemodel out here like you..We already have the daily stressers like school and work and bills piling up so with the added facts of skin color and this money and job shit we all need alittle faith in GOD BAY GURL I LOVE YOU CRYSTAL KEEP DOIN YOUR THING GOD GOTCHU cuzz you have talent in your hands for hair and make-up!!Use what god gave you!!

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  3. Hey Tim...

    i really appreciate those words and you are right. I know what I am here for and I will accomplish..

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  4. Donald...

    seems like someone has been reading the secret.. lol great book and it works. i have also mived from all that but still you know?

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  5. No way, though rev Michael is a nice guy, know him, his new age stuff is just watered down philosophy. And the secret is just narcissism, wanting things and so matieralistic. But this is LA after all.

    I am always looking for models, a legit artist who sells .
    look at my art and purpose blog, trying to save the watts towers with Rev Chip Murrays backing, he of First AME fame, and also baptized my son 20 years ago.

    Have a wonderful weekend, I am nursing wounds after being jumped by four morons. But puny picadors can never bring down a true Bull, taureans are tough.

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  6. deep message I love you if no one else dont

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